Mechanically Geared

For Shame

For my lack of writing. Trust me I’m not forgetting about this already, I just honestly don’t know what to write, but I will soon I promise. A couple of things are going on in my life that I really like at the moment so those will come up at some point in the near future as updates or success stories or otherwise. 

I promise.

Random! (NSFW)

So from time to time I’m going to have the urge to write something, about anything, and it may not make sense, and it may not flow well, but you know what? Fuck it. I just don’t give a damn kids.

Ok so tonight after work I had my sports, and this week we played grass volleyball. Its regular volleyball, but its played on grass! Oh boy! Thing is, it rained today, heavily, but not for that long, but it was a good hour or so. Anyways, it left the playing surface somewhat slick. Needless to say, it caused some hilarity amongst my team with people falling down, sliding, all round good fun right chaps?

So after that I came home, sat down, and thanks to Kotaku (a website about everything video games), it led me to a video of 4 guys playing Diablo 3 with only barbarians, on hardcore, with no equipment and trying to down the Skeleton King (first boss in game, so no spoilers there). It took them awhile to do it, but it was really well put together (the video that is) and it caused me to download Sony Vegas Pro 11.0 for my computer, and now I want to learn how to edit video (I used to in highschool but on a completely different program so I’m basically new at it all over again). Why do I use brackets so much? I just fucking want to kid.

So now I’m drinking a beer, listening to these guys on their other videos just chat it up and laugh at random jokes and drawings. 

I really want June 26th to come, since that day I get to get my elbow tattooed. I’ve been looking forward to this for a long time, and frankly what I’m getting is nothing short of amazing. If you wish to know, tune in sports fans on June 26th around 5pm to see a picture of the art on my arm. 

Random post, complete for May 30th, 2012.

On going review of… Kingdoms of Amalur, Part 1

So this will be a series that goes towards reviewing video games. This is the first time doing this so be patient as I get my bearings for this. This week I’ll be reviewing Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning. 

So as of the writing of this I’ve put precisely 1:17:48 into the game. I’m a level 2 brawler named Elrid (it was the name given to me, I wasn’t feeling that creative to come up with a name yesterday). Now I’m sure most of you have heard about Studio 38 and Big Huge Games shutting down due to the fact they couldn’t pay off their debt, a whopping 75 million. You may think thats a lot for a video game, but a lot of games are becoming big budget titles, and a lot of companies see this as a necessity to make it in the industry. Now back to the game before I get too far off track.

So far there are annoyances, annoyances which I can see myself being very very very frustrated with later on. The map system is ok, but it likes to click into certain spots, not allowing you to fine tune your placement of your cursor. Having to fight with the left thumb stick just to take off a waypoint is really stupid and takes away from playment of the game.

The camera is, lets be honest, very weak. The default settings are really way to loose. Trying to use the right thumb stick to keep the camera behind your character as you’re in a fight is frustrating to say the least. Losing enemies from your sight is a constant problem, and depending on your weapon, can mean death. Once you get used to the combat system (which I am still trying to do) it shouldn’t be a problem, but until then, you might have some difficulty. 

The audio in the game isn’t that great either. The spoken dialog from the NPCs is alright in its writing so far, but the audio levels is atrocious. I have to crank up my volume to hear the NPCs talk, but if a cut scene comes on, its incredibly loud, and ear piercing. I’d like to say “I hope theres a patch coming for this…” but I highly doubt it (see mention of developer going under). 

I’ll stick with the game until I just rage quit, which sadly can be soon considering small game mechanics really mean a lot to me.

So… Writing tries to make a return.

So here I am, on a blog site, not many followers (thats fine with me to be honest since I rarely update my blog with anything informative or creative) and for some reason having an itch to write. 

I haven’t written anything creative in forever, the last time being in highschool I do believe for a creative writing class. That short story was based in a world like Sin City, no colours other than black, white and shades of grey. It was about a boy who lost the girl in which he shared feelings for after a fit of rage that took over him, and after realizing what he did, mutilated himself until his death. 

Now you must understand that I wrote this as a teenager full of angst and supposedly depressing thoughts (many kids my age at the time thought this way). Thinking I was being deep and insightful into the human soul I wrote this, and actually being well received in my class for my use of colour for feelings (being very drab works with kids apparently) and for the descriptions I gave for the surroundings my character was in. 

Now after this story, creatively titled “Romance is Red”, I didn’t write again. Maybe I thought my creative climax had hit me and that I couldn’t progress any farther than that one story. Sure I wrote other stories before that, but most of them I threw aside thinking they weren’t worth a second look like a mound of shit would. So after that one story, I simply stopped writing. I felt no need to nor did I feel the pull to write anymore. The idea of having other people read what you write, grow a world in their minds that you help form just simply died for me. 

So why the recent drive to write? There is no reason behind it, and this won’t be the last time I feel this way since this itself isn’t the first time I’ve felt this way? Will I try and keep up with writing? I’ll certainly try, but will I be successful? Highly doubtful. Sadly I still have no real drive to write something, to do the work of building up vocabulary to really get my ideas across, or digging up information of what I wish to write (you can’t tell a world war two story without knowing key details on the parts of the war you’re writing right?). 

Will I try to create a fictional story to allow my mind wander and explore itself? Maybe. Or will I create a non-fictional time frame in which I retell a story which has probably been retold before? Highly unlikely. 

So why even try? Because why did I even give up in the first place? My reasoning wasn’t that good to start off and the mind needs an outlet, a way to express itself outside of the daily tasks it performs. 

I just simply need this to exist to my fullest. Will it make sense all the time? Fuck no. Do I care? A bit.

So I have to learn a way to completely forget about my ex. Shes happier without me and I needed the change away from her since she gave up. But why do I still feel helpless when I see something with her? I can talk about her and have no problem. People can mention her in conversations and I’ll be fine. But when I find her online somehow (twitter today) I start to panic? Why?

Turn Around

Its turn around time and I really kick into high gear a better way of living with more exercise and better eating. I’m missing out of a lot things in my life all because I say “I can’t do that”. Eff that kids, I’m going to do everything even if I can’t.